Christmas 08....

listening to: Chris Lemke at our sister station W*BEEP* (lol inside joke) playing Brandon Heath's "Give Me Your Eyes" so loud that if we had the mics on right now our listeners could hear it.
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So Nick and I took a trip back to IL to visit his family. This time for Christmas. And let me tell you it was one of the 3 coldest times of my entire life!!!!

It was like 14 here and -2 there! For real!!!!! I had on at least 6 blankets every night... one was a thermal sleeping bag, one a down filled comforter and one being a heated blanket (which I made Nick use the last 2 nights since he insisted on sleeping on the couch instead of the air mattress his mom made up for him. And with only a throw pillow... and somehow I'M the one that got sick).

The coldest by far was when I was at recording school and the electricity went out... yeah... we had ELECTRIC heat and it is was January in the middle of nowhere!!! SO! COLD!

The third... the night before last when the electricity went out at my apartment. Not as cold. but MAN it was pretty chilly!! Thanks wind storm!!!

So now I have a cold. fun.

But I got my hair cut off!!! I'm not even kidding. It's now the shortest it's EVER been. I have pictures... I just have to swipe them from Nick. So I'll post them in a day or so...

have fun y'all... and I leave you with a video courtesy of Zach the soon-to-be-not-the-intern-anymore...



*laughing*

- Stacey Ree-

Notable videos....

listening to: "Outstretched Hands" by: Starfield

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ok so everyday Derek and I get a picture of the day and a video of the day. I'm gonna start posting the really good ones... like these...

*dies laughing*

*tries to breathe* wait... it... gets... better...

*dies laughing again*

ok here's a really cool one...

and a super adorable cat...

enjoy y'all!!! i'll post more as we get them..

-stacey ree-

CANADA, EH?

listening to: "When I Get Home, You're So Dead" by: Mayday Parade

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So I'm all sorts of geeked!!! See...

I just got my passport in the mail. I've always wanted to travel and now I can.. so my list of places to go before I die is rapidly growing... 

and this is the scary part...

first on the list now is.... wait for it....

CANADA!!!

Yeah. You read that right. Canada... as in... Canada.... Who honestly is all like... Hey I REALLY wanna go to Canada? ME! I've grown up just hours from the Canadian borders and I've never been. I wanna go. So I'm gonna. I don't care if it's just me and I cross the border and turn right back around... or if someone else goes too... or if I take a car load and make a weekend out of it. 

DANG IT! I'M GOING TO CANADA! 

- Stacey -

ps.... yes... you can worry and start praying for me... I may have lost my mind after all... let me know if you find it. 

blah blah blah... yak yak yak... lol

listening to: "You Had Me" by: Joss Stone

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I'm bored so y'all get a survey dealie thing my friend Sara did today... 

1. Do you like anyone?: yep
2. Do they know it? yep
3. Simple or complicated? my "crush" it's pretty simple i guess cause he likes me back

IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U

4. Had sex: nope. Abstinence baby!
5. Bought something: yep
6. Gotten sick?: yep
7. Been hugged?: yep
8. Felt stupid?: yep
9. Talked to an ex: nope
10. Missed someone: yep
11. Failed a test: nope
13. Danced: yep
14. Gotten your hair cut?: nope
15. Lied: nope

U N I Q U E

16. Nervous habits?: i tap my fingers and bounce my leg a lot... oh and I do this "broken ankles" thing EVERY TIME!!!
17. Are you double jointed? Nope
18. Can you roll your tongue? yep
19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: not very well
20. Can you cross your eyes?: yep
21. Do you make your bed daily?: no but i should
22. Do you think you are unique?: very much so

H A V E Y O U E V E R

23. Said "I Love you": yep
24. Given money to a homeless person: not that I can think of
25. Smoked?: no
26. Waited all night for a phone call?: yep
27. Snuck out?: lol kinda
28. Sat and looked at the stars?: yep

M A N N E RS

30. Do you ever spit?: ew no! that's one of my pet peeves!
31. You cook your own food?: yeah... well except when Nick does...
32. You do your own chores? yeah... part of living on your own
33. You like beef jerky: yep
34. Are you happy with your life? some times. 
36. You own a dog?: no but I want one
37. You spend your money wisely?: mostly
38. Do you like to swim?: yeah
39. When you get bored do you call a friend? not really

D O Y O U P R E F E R

41. Flowers or angels?: ???????????? those two aren't even close!!!! but i guess angels...
42. Gray or black?: Black
43. Color or black and white photos?: both
44. Lust or love?: love
45. Sunrise or sunset?: both. but i see far more sunrises than sunsets
46. M&Ms or Skittles?: skittles... like i'd choose the chocolate!!! yuck!!!
48. Staying up late or waking up early?: i wake up early 5 days a week... i wanna sleep in!!!
49. Being hot or cold?: hot!
50. Winter or Fall?: fall
51. Left or right?: right
52. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?: *shrugs* i like both
53. Sunshine or rain?: both

MORE HAVE YOU EVER

54.Slept in a bed with the opposite sex?: does a couch count? I'm sure my cousin and I have taken naps together when we were younger
55.Hooked up in the woods? no
56.Drank a bottle of alcohol by yourself?: yes and I will never do that again! Alcohol is bad for you!
57.Hooked up in the shower?: no
59.Stolen money from a friend? no
60.Slept naked?: yes... it's called pre-birth... you don't just come out in head to toe gucci ya know!
61.Been in a fist fight?: kinda
62.Snuck out of your house?: kinda... wait... didn't you already ask that?
63.Had a crush on a teacher?: yep. Mr. See!!!
64.Seen someone die? yes
65.Been on an airplane? yep
66.Slept all day?: only once... i think...
67.Missed someone so much it hurt?: yep
68.Fallen asleep during school? nope
69.Been lonely?: yep
70.Cheated in a game?: nope
71.Been to the ER?: nope... though i should've MANY times...
74.Missed your first love?: i honestly never really knew what love was until now... but yes I have missed the guy i thought was my first love and i currently miss the guy who really IS my first love. 
75.Cried yourself to sleep?: yep
76.Sung in the shower?: yep
77.Kissed a complete stranger: nope
78.Laughed so hard you cried? yep
79.Cheated on a bf/gf: nope!
80.Regretted hurting someone?: yep
81.Regretted loving someone?: yep
81.Been SUPER happy? yep

1) Crushin', Interested, or in a Relationship? VERY taken!!! :D

2) How's your mood? Sedate. 

3) When you meet the right person, do you fall fast: Yes I did... but I fought it. Until he told me to just let go and trust in him and to trust in God. 

4) Have you ever had your heart broken? yep. 

5) Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is acceptable? NO! NEVER!!!

6) Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you? I HIGHLY doubt it! Luckily the only one that I know ever did I had broken up with before I found out. So that was over already!

7) Have you talked about marriage with another person? yep.

11) If somebody liked you right now, what do you think a cool way to let you know would be?  :D He tells me daily... actually i should say hourly. :D honestly i just love how he didn't hold back. I hate games. 

12) Do you enjoy playing hard to get? no

13) Be honest, do you play the "game" when you are dating? I guess not since I don't know what "game" you're talking about.

14) Do you believe in love at first sight? yes and no. I believe God puts something in your heart when you see that person. But it's what you do with it after that, that turns into love. 

15) Are you romantic? *shrugs* not that I know of. 

16) Do you believe that you can change someone? I don't want to change anyone. God made them the way they are for a reason. Only God and the person can change them. They're the only ones that should. 

17) If you could get married anywhere, money not an object? *shrugs* Honestly... it depends on where we live at the time, what time of year it is, and what he has to say about it. It's not just about the bride. that's one thing about weddings that drives me nuts! there are TWO people getting married!!!!

18) How's the weather? cloudy. cold. and about to snow again.

19) Do you think going back to an ex is a smart move? it depends on the person and the ex. for me? no. happy where I am thanks. :D

20) Do you have feelings for someone right now, whether they know or not? yes. and yes he knows. at least he better! lol

21) Have you ever wished you could've had someone but you messed it up? i used to

22.) Have you broken a heart? a few. not my happiest moments. 

23.)What would you do if you found your bf/gf with another person in bed?  I would be TOTALY devastated! Luckily I know i can trust him to not do that. 

Best
1. Male Friend: other than the obvious (Nick), Corey
2. Female friend: Leslie
3. Vacation: so far? Myrtle Beach, SC
4. Memory: seeing Nick for the first time in over a year and hearing him say my name to make sure it was me before I ever saw him. 

Worst
1. Time of day: 4:30 am
2. Day of the week: Tuesdays
3. Food: Chocolate
4. Memory: finding out Matt died. 

Last
1. Person you saw: Derek
2. Talked to on the phone: Nick
3. Run in with an ex: a few weeks ago at the place we both used to work/
4. Person you messaged over facebook: Mike
5. IM'd: Nick
6. Texted: Sara

Today
1. What are you doing right now: this and listening to music
2. Wearing? pajama pants, t-shirt and hoodie
3. Better than yesterday? i cleaned a lot... so i guess so... cause my apartment needed it!!
4. Did you see the person you like? nope. i mean i saw a picture... but no. not today.

Tomorrow
1. Is: thursday
2. Got any plans: working all day. 
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: working all day. 

Favorite
1. Number: 4
2. Song: oh man... of all time???? I guess "The Christmas Song" by: Nat King Cole

1. Missing someone: yeah
2. Mood: *shrugs* could be better. could be worse.
3. Wanting: to finish this so I can put clean sheets on my bed and start dinner

True or False

I am a morning person: true
I am an only child: false
I am currently in my PJ's: true
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: false
I can be paranoid at times: true
I currently regret something that I have done: false
I curse frequently: false
I enjoy country music: true
I enjoy hip hop: false
I enjoy techno/trance: false
I enjoy talking on the phone: *shrugs* false?
I have a hidden talent: true
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: true
I have all my grandparents: false
I have at least one brother and/or sister: true
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor: true
I have changed a diaper: true
I have changed a lot over the past year: true
I have done something illegal: false
I have had major/minor surgery: false
I have had my hair cut within the last 2 months: true
I have had the cops called on me: false

-Single or Taken: TAKEN!!! :D
-Eye color: hazel-brown
-Height: 5'3"
-Righty or lefty: righty
-Can you make a dollar in change right now? i use debt 
-Musical talents: I'm told I'm a good singer... wether it's true or not is a different story...
-Can be a good bf/gf: I try

FAVORITES
Kind of jeans: not many fit right so I guess my Aeropostale ones
Weather: spring... right on the edge of summer... when it could storm but it's a warm storm. :D
Animal: monkey
Drink: water
Month: april
Juice: apple
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1) If you married the last person you kissed what would your last name be? :D I hope one day I get to marry him... West. :D
2) What did you do this afternoon? cleaned my apartment and did laundry
4) Whats the last thing to make you laugh? Zach this morning talking about 5 onion rings in stead of 5 golden rings in the 12 Days of Christmas. 
5) Can you take a bra off with one hand? don't think I've ever tried
6) Can you use chopsticks? yes... just not sure it's the right way.
7) How old were you when you lost your first tooth? 6 I think
8) Were you a hyper or mellow kid?  STILL hyper
9) Why did you throw up last? i don't remember
10) Last time you were drunk? I don't drink
11) What's for dinner? I'm thinking Chicken Carbarnara
12) Ever been to the Statue of Liberty? nope
13) Voting for Hillary? no
14) How many e-mail addresses do you have? like 6 but i only use 3.. two for work
15) Do you HAVE to have brand name stuff? some
16) Last time you washed your hair? yesterday. will again in about an hour
17) Is the last person you kissed attractive? OF COURSE!!! He's the best looking guy EVER!!!!
18) Do you like Oreos? yuck! No!
19) Do you send out thank-you cards? no but I should
20) Can you ice skate? never tried
21) Do you have a brother? no
22) Do you know how to change a diaper? yeah

23) do you flip people off while driving? no
24) What color is your car? red
25) What are you listening to? copeland
27) Who's your favorite American Idol judge? i don't watch tv
28) Do you like to grocery shop? not really
29) What kind of mood are you in? hurt right now... mom just called about some lady that stole a vehicle full of toys from the Salvation Army Angel Tree. Those poor kids. :( I used to be one of them and so I know how likely it is that if they don't get those gifts they might not get anything. :(
30) Last time you cleaned? just before i started this...
31) What is the last song you listened to? "Love Story" by: Taylor Swift
32) What pills do you take daily, and what do they do? i don't take any. But I'm supposed to take vitamins. 
33) Do you like anyone? UGH! HOW MANY TIME ARE YOU GONNA ASK???? YES I DO!!!!
34) Do you do your own laundry? -- yes
35) How many people have you kissed in 2008 & who we're they? -- two, jimm and tyler.
36) Are you single/taken? ANOTHER ONE TO PLEASE STOP ASKING! I'M TAKEN!!!! I THINK WE COVERED THAT 50 TIMES NOW!!!
37) Baths or showers? showers
38) Do you take out the trash? sometimes
39) What are you doing this weekend? have a family get together
40) Are you getting engaged anytime soon? um... that's up to him... it's whenever he wants to ask. I'm not putting a time limit on him.

41) Paper or Plastic? plastic
42) Do you watch "The Hills"? don't watch tv
43) Last CD you played? some single i had to listen to for work
44) What did you do last Saturday night? read
45) What are you thinking about right now? wanting to go watch the news to see if there's any news about this lady that stole those presents
46) Which one of your friends is going to have the cutest baby? oh man... I don't know it's hard to compete with my nieces. Not to mention Ayden is pretty darn cute!
47) What was the last thing you drank? water
48) Wearing any bracelets? yes
49) Last thing someone bought for you? heating blanket and a winter jacket
50) What are you going to do now? go watch the news while I make dinner.

And that's FINALLY over... sorry I did that... I don't think I'll ever do that again! lol

- Stacey Ree -

Muddy Waters...

listening to: honestly... right now... nothing... ok well people talking... does that count?
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So last night I had kind of a "bad dream" seems like one of many lately. I just got some bad news yesterday and so I think that had a lot to do with it. I was getting down and pretty worried about things. But I think it showed me that I was "muddying up the waters" so I couldn't hear God's voice. I couldn't hear him speak to me when I was trying to listen so hard. Or at least I thought I was trying. I think that maybe I was afraid of what He was trying to tell me.

It took one of his many "God Bricks" to finally open my eyes. We talked about whispers from God on Sunday during church. But I just wasn't getting it. He had to go another route... yet again to finally get through to me.

He decided to use one of my oldest friends, Kevin. In this "dream" Kevin was arrested for attempted murder. And that's not anything Kevin would EVER be capable of. TRUST ME! I think I pushed him a few times over the 20 odd years we've known each other. And he never broke.

So this morning I woke up and God threw His God brick at my head, screaming "ARE YOU LISTENING NOW?????"

Yes, Lord. I think I am. Or at least this time I'm honestly trying.

I'm gonna try to "clean up the muck" in the waters of my mind. But I know I can't do it alone. I need someone to hold me to it. To make sure I don't falter and stumble along the way. I need prayer.

- Stacey Ree -

Happy Thanksgiving?

listening to: "Oh Star" by: Paramore

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It's the holidays. Everyone's wishing everyone a "Happy Holidays." So far Thanksgiving is past. It was actually a great one. I got to spend it with family. My friend Katie came up from school in Illinois with her boyfriend, Justin. And best of all (no offense to the rest of you) Nick flew in from Nashville while he had a few days off. 

He had to fly back tonight for a few shows. I have to say (thankfully) it wasn't nearly as hard to say goodbye this time. I know when I get to see him again. Plus he has this thing about "spoiling" me. lol So now I own a pair of chucks... and because he worries so much about me being cold... I also now own a brand new jacket and a heating blanket. lol

He doesn't need to buy me things and he knows it. I'm not used to a guy buying me things and treating me like he does. But I can get used to it. :) Honestly when I think about it he buys me is usually pretty practical. Things I can use. Like when he insists on buying groceries or a fan. :) ok so he didn't buy the fan... it was his. But you get the idea. lol 

I won't pretend that I'm not 100% comfortable with him doing it. I wasn't raised to be like that. I'm not used to guys taking care of women. My mom taught me to be independent and that women can do things on their own. They can survive without a man telling them what to do. But in all honesty... It's not so hard to allow Nick to do what he wants. 

Poor guy puts up with enough of my whining when he does. lol So I try and let him do what he wants from time to time. He seems to be ok with that deal. lol

Anyway. That's what's going on in Staceyland... hope all is well and you're enjoying the holiday season wherever you are tonight...

don't be a stranger. ok?

- Stacey Ree -

and then there was one...

listening to: silence (but "Crippling Machine" from: A Roterdam November is stuck in my head...

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sleep. 

I wish. 

Sleep has never come very easily from me. I get that honestly. my mom's always had problems sleeping too. But for a while it wasn't as much of a problem. But now that Nick is gone... sleep has gotten MUCH worse again. I worry if he's ok. We hardly talk because our schedules are polar opposites and we're always so busy.  But for some reason tonight is the worst it's been in months. 

I thought for a second maybe it was because this was around the time Matt died. 

it's not. 

that was a few weeks ago. 

I can't put my finger on it. All I know is that my mind won't stop racing and I can't get comfortable. 

Something's coming. Something big. 

Excitement or anxiousness of worry I can't tell. but whatever it is... my senses are going haywire. I wake up at night expecting to see someone in my apartment... nope... just myself and laura.

I constantly feel watched... but not always creepily. I just can't focus in any way. And what's worse... I don't have anyone to really talk to. Everyone's sleeping right now. And this is the time when it's the worst. in the dead of night while the whole world and everyone I love is asleep and unaware that I'm in need of help... but it's not really help that anyone can give me... at least I don't think....

Ok i'm rambling again... sorry...

- Stacey Ree -

Remembering November 1994...

listening to: "Who You'd Be Today" by: Kenny Chesney & "When We Die" by: Bowling For Soup

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As the anniversary of Matt's death approaches I remember him as he was and wish so many of my family and friends could have met him. Most of all I wish he and Nick would have met. Nick would've liked him. Matt would've been at ease "leaving me" in Nick's care.

I look at my relationship with Nick and I see a lot of Matt in him and how we interact. The jokes we make toward each other. The things he worries about. I haven't told him yet... but he reads this so surprise baby! I just didn't know how to bring it up. 

Everyday he (Nick) becomes more and more of my best friend... the one Matt had always been. And for the first time in my life I'm more at ease with him being gone. For the first time in 14 years I'm not grieving over Matt's death. But rejoicing in the friendship we shared. 

I can't believe how blessed I am. I've gotten to experience 2 of the greatest best friends I'll ever have in my life time... one of them... my guarding angel... and the other... the man God has hand picked for me to spend the rest of my life with.

I only wish the rest of the world could be as happy as I am. 

- Stacey-

OH!!! I forgot... Nick's gotten me into attending church online at lifechurch.tv and in the series "Kaleo" week 1 Pastor Craig told us a story about a woman he saw who may have needed help and how he didn't stop to see and how that memory haunted him... he said one thing that really hit stuck with me. He said... "To care and not act is to not care at all." 

Chew on that for awhile and I pray it opens your eyes to how true that is for each and everyone of us when we choose to not do something simply because we don't want to... To be a good Christian... to be a good neighbor... to be a good citizen... to be a good person... is to help those in need even when you don't want to and it's an "inconvenience". That may be an angel in disguise and it's what God wants... not what we want no matter what way you look at it. So stop making excuses and ACT!

oh what a world....

listening to: singles with Mike...
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oh where do i start? ok well first off sorry about the mix up... I posted a blog about Nick & I and said I talked about him in April of '05 sorry it way in April of '06.

So a lot has been going on 'round here...

Last Friday i met one of my favorite authors of all time, Beverly Lewis. She's amazing and everyone should read her books! You won't regret it!

Then Natalie & I went to the wedding of my friend, Shannon. It was BEAUTIFUL! And I hadn't seen in her in a few years so it was great to catch up for a short time.

HOWEVER... as we waited... Nat and I got a little bored...

so i went tanning...

and we thought i'd be fun to take random pics of ourselves...

we got kind a lazy while "tanning" so we spent the flipping through the radio stations...

and then took more of those random pictures...

but some random weird guy kept buying me drinks... NON-alcoholic of course!!!


yeah it was a TON of fun... well except that guy.... but yeah... it was fun!

any questions? don't ask... cause I got nothing! lol
-Stacey Ree-

And then God spoke to me...

listening to: "Fall" by: Clay Walker
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Something extraordinary happened today! I went to see Matt.

I know no big deal here right?

WRONG!!

I went alone! This is a big deal! I never thought I'd be able to go alone. Nick has given me such strength and courage that I knew I could do it. As I drove nearer to the cemetery. I just felt like I had to stop. It doesn't matter to me if that's only his body laying there. It makes me feel closer to him. I know Matt's always around. But I feel like I can talk freely with him and I can feel that he hears me and cares.

He's happy. He's safe. He's over the moon that God brought Nick and I together. They would've liked each other. In fact... 3 years ago Matt would've probably been right there when Nick & I met and would've seen that we liked each other and then done everything he could've to get us together. That's just who he was. lol

I miss him. But he's happy that God picked Nick out for me. Cause Matt knows I will be taken care of. I won't be allowed to get too much out of hand cause Nick will keep me in check. *dies laughing* and he knows I'll be loved the way I'm supposed to.

I'm so at peace right now. Nothing can bring me down. :D
-Stacey -

IT'S REALLY HAPPENED!!!!

Watching: "Feeling So Fly" by: Tobymac
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I can't believe I'm about to say this FOR REAL... but... I've fallen in love.

I got a "New" boyfriend. He's technically been around for 3 years (posted a blog about him back in April of 2005) but we've just recently gotten together and I've never been happier!!!

His name is Nick... he's A LOT taller than I am... I'm 5'3"... he's 6'5". So it's funny to see the two of us together! lol but yeah! He's a christian... He's adorable... HE COOKS!! He's just plain amazing!

I'm not used to guys telling me I'm beautiful and worth this or that... but he does and I love it. I know this is something I can really get used to!!! We talk everyday and whenever I see his name on my caller ID I giggle. It's kinda annoying I must say. lol HE'S NOT ANNOYING!! I AM!! lol

I can't wait for everyone to meet him!!! A lot of my friends who haven't even met him (ie: Hannah, Angie, Sara etc...) have all told me I "glow" when I talk about him (which is ALL the time). What can I say. I REALLY like him! I've had a crush on him since I met him 3 years ago... but it wasn't time. God wanted us to be together now. And so we are and it's the greatest thing EVER!!!

ok gotta go now before I make myself throw up over how "cute" we are! lol

- Stacey Ree -

best friends day...

listening to: The Myriad "A Thousand Winters Melting"
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WaYfm Sticker Stop Blog...

listening to: "Is It Considered Progression If A Cannibal Uses A Fork" by: Chiodos
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in time of sorrow...

listening to: "Sad To See" by: Philos
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Have you ever been in a situation when things are looking up for you and you're on top of the world. But then at the same time someone very close to you is falling apart and there's nothing you can do to help them. You give them advice. You're there when they cry. You take them out to distract their thoughts. But at the end of the day they crawl back into a whole and cry and all you can do is watch.

To this friend. You know who you are...

I wish I could do more. If I had super powers I would "slay the dragon" that hurt you... I would send you home... even for a short while... I would make it all go away...

But all I can do is to be there for you. Answer the phone when you call. Crack a joke (of course a really bad one lol) when you need to smile.

Just know that I'm here. I'm not going anywhere. And I would do everything in my mortal power to make you feel better through this.

Just remember my favorite verse... Luke 1:37... "For nothing is impossible with God."

Keep him in your heart. And you'll pull through this. God will take care of you.

I love you.
- Stacey Ree -






p.s.... I FOUND MY CHEESE!!!! It's yummy... I'm gonna go eat some now... -k- bye...

Happy 4th of July!!

listening to: "Brand New Day" by: Fireflight
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Transparent

listening to: commercials on some random AC radio station the girls are listening to... they should have on WaYfm! We're commercial FREE!! lol

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I'm dissapointed in myself. When things are coming at me and it seems all I can do is call on God. I do. But when things go my way, I forget to thanks God for the blessings He has given me. I should be thanking Him everyday. I can walk. I can talk. I have an amazing family and group of friends. I am surrounded by people who love me. I have a great job that I love. A roommate I get along with. I'm sorry, Lord. I'm sorry for not giving You the praise You deserve. I don't know why I always do this. Even as I sit here and write this with my little pen and pad of paper, I find myself coloring in the words at the bottom of the page. I know I'm in no way the model Christian. But I want to be. I need Your help, Lord. For the first time in a long time the winds are in my favor and I am doing nothing but longing to praise You for it all. Thank you, Lord... for everything.

Amen.

- Stacey -

video blog #3

natalie dances

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video blog #1

The Cheese Hunt

watching: The Perfect Man
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3 towns. 1 day. 10.8 million stores. NO CHEESE!

How is it possible. NO one had it???

I even knocked on my car and started calling at a bunch of Amish people (that couldn't hear me obviously) that passed me on my hunt to see if they knew where I could find it. I was yelling things like "WHERE IS YOUR CHEESE?" and "DO YOU KNOW WHO HAS IT?"

my mom was roaring. I have to admit it was quite a site.

but after searching most of the day. alas... no Amish Cheese with Bacon.

THIS STINKS!!!

SERIOUSLY bumming...
-Stacey-

Oh what a day

listening to: something by the Foo Fighters... something about "another round..." or something...
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Hypothetically speaking... what do you do when one of the days that is supposed to be the absolute best turns out to be one of the absolute worst?

Is it because you get your hopes up too high for that day? You expect everything to be perfect and then because you hoped for so much everything goes totally haywire.

I just don't get it. Makes no sense what so ever.

Trusting In The Lord and His Plan

Listening to: "If I Am" by: Nine Days
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Ok God! I hear You! I understand that I need to have patience!

Wow! The words to this song really are a "God brick" as Nat calls it. :)

I mean look at the words... right off the bat God threw one of his "God bricks" to the back of my head to get my attention...

"So you're standing on a ledge
it looks like you might fall
so far down
or maybe you
were thinking about jumpin'
but you could have it all
if you learned a little patience..."
"... so give me a little credit
have in me a little faith
I wanna be with you forever
but tomorrow's not too late..."

THWAP!

Yeah! Didn't see that one coming. That's gonna leave a mark!

No. I'm not about to literally go "jump" of a cliff. But I was running hear first to dive off the edge and plunge in the metaphorical waters below. I want it all so badly that I couldn't see that I was taking someone else over the edge with me.

I was being selfish.

I'm not hurt, depressed or even sad for that matter. This happens to be one of my "happy" songs.

Now I know why. :D

Thank you, Lord of Heaven and Earth for reminding me that it takes patience and it's all worth waiting for.

*pushes repeat for the 4th time... so far... and starts singing & dancing around her bedroom*
- Stacey Ree -

I called your name today... but you never called back...

listening to: silence
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For the first time ever I am proud to say that AJ is totally behind me! I woke up today and suddenly it hit me. I'm totally over him. I don't think about him nearly as much as I used to. I'm no longer angry. I'm no longer sad. I'm just past that part of my life.

You know the strangest part of it... Brittany posted pictures from her birthday party and as I looked at them I couldn't figure out exactly what I liked about him. Then I started thinking about how 1 year ago I was crying over him. PSHT! FORGET THAT! I was crying over him last week! hahaha

But not anymore. AJ is now tucked away in a memory. I like our friendship. But I'm glad to say that's all it will ever be from this moment on. I have completely let him go.

I'm not afraid to admit... I'm proud of myself!
- Stacey Ree -

The Good Times...

listening to: "Whenever You Remember" by: Carrie Underwood
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Have you ever had those times when you just really miss home? It doesn't matter if you're at school, on the road, or at a friends house. Missing home stinks! I just got a message from a friend saying he moved to Tennessee. I saw a video earlier , "Moments" by: Emerson Drive & Now I'm watching a show about Carrie Underwood and both have Nashville in them. Moments only had "The Bridge" in it but in this show I've seen the skyline, LP Field, & one place that is close to my heart, The Sound Kitchen.

I am going back for a wedding in June. But I don't want to wait that long. I'd gladly give up all birthday plans I could have just to spend one day there again.

I miss my friends. I miss the city. lol I even miss the dumb construction on Briley Parkway.

I'm happy where I am. God wants me here. I have a great job. Amazing friends. My family is here. I don't have anything to complain about.

I just need one day to sastify my homesickness.

I love you, Nashville!
- Stacey Ree -

It's a great day to be alive I know the sun's still shining when I close my eyes...

listening to: Travis Tritt "Great Day To Be Alive" & Breaking Benjamin "Breathe"
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Today is a great day. The sun in shinning It's Anisa & Josh's anniversary. Valentine's Day is tomorrow. I have an amazing boyfriend. I have the greatest job in the world. Good health. And a God who loves me.

I have nothing to complain about and I love it.

God is good... all the time... and all the time... God is good. *looks at Nat & giggles*

- Stacey Ree -

p.s lol it's so beautiful that I couldn't waste the sun so I'm "sun-bathing" in my car since it's 25 degrees outside. *dies laughing*

she said I'm sorry I had a bad day again...

listening to: "By Now" by: Copper
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talk about a bad morning! So far I woke up at 3 and then somehow fell back to sleep in that time cause I woke up again at 3:45 and had to rush my shower and only half do my hair. I had to rush to work which wasn't a good thing since the roads were bad and I live an hour away.

I got a bloody nose. That never happens!

I almost got hit like 4 times on the way here by the only other 4 cars on the road when I am.

I have no make up on cause I didn't have time and I look like I got dressed in the dark.

Oh and I started to fall asleep on the way to work.

Deep breath Stace. *takes a deep breath*

I can't believe it's only 5:20. I hope this day turns around fast. I go on the air in 40.

pray for me y'all.
- Stacey Ree -

I was dreaming when I wrote this...

listening to: "1999" by: Prince
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"Some of the best things in life are worth waiting for." good quote but doesn't come close to "Sometimes what you're looking for comes to you when you least expect it."

It's true. It happened. After 4 dates Drew and I have "started dating" if that makes any sense. He's amazing. He treats me like "I'm supposed to be treated" and he makes me smile. He's a Christian. Now I'm just scared I'm gonna do something to make him run the other way. :*( That would stink really badly!!!!

The one thing that I know might get in me into trouble is that we're both stubborn. Like REALLY stubborn. But we're working on it. He's learning to allow me to do something on my own and I'm learning to allow him to do things for me. It's hard going from being independent and "the one in charge" in a relationship to being sumbissive. But he's worth it.

I know I know. We haven't been together very long at all but I can tell already that he's special. If he married someone else however long down the road I know she'd be extremely lucky and I'd be ok with that. Cause God would want him there. Now if that is me... and I'm not at all like "oh man I'm going to marry this man" or anything then I know that's where God wants us and I hope that I would be as happy as I am right now.

Now if only I could let go of this stubborness... it's a long shot isn't it? lol

- Stacey Ree -

Oh the thoughts of Stacey...

listening to: Thunder outside my bedroom window.
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You know in the movies and cartoons how you get a horse to move by dangling a carrot from a stick in front of it?

I'm the horse.

What I want is right there. But it's just out of me reach. So I walk in circles in hopes that maybe just maybe I will catch up to it.

Forget the piles of vegetables I trail by. I want that carrot. Anything else wouldn't taste nearly as good. And I refuse to settle for vegetables that aren't the... well.. "apple" (that IS how the saying goes) of my eye. That carrot WILL be mine one day.

Striving for the carrot
- Stacey -

The New WaYfm Morning Show - Day 1

listening to: "Far Away" by: Nickelback
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Day 1 is done. Like every first there were some trip ups. But Mike & I survived. We did ok from the feedback we've gotten so far. I'm just tired is all.

I knew I shouldn't have stayed up so late. lol

But I finally watched 3 movies I've been wanting to watch for a while now. The Nanny Diaries, 300, & The Invisible.

The Nanny Dairies:
It was cute. I may own it one day. Still not sure. It wasn't as funny as I thought it was going to be. So that was a bit of a let down.

300:
Horrible. I didn't like anything about it. VERY disappointed!

The Invisible:
Great movie! FAR better than I expected! The end was a bit cheesy. But it happens. I WILL own it one day! I would have to say it would be one of my favorite movies! And there are NOT many of those around... COREY! lol

"live long and prosper"... that's Star Wars right?.....
- Stacey Ree -